its 0145am. everyone in the house is already sleeping and snoring except for my brother who is still not home yet and myself here typing. 15 minutes ago, i was on the phone with my boyfriend. oh,i met him yesterday since his off day(which is for a day in a week, so little!) first, we went to Singapore Nursing Board to get my nursing licence card ready and paid 70bucks for just the licence card(damn). p/s: i find it wasting for paying such an amount for just a small card? anyway, its useful for a nurse. i get my licence now and i should actually be proud to have one. :D ok back to my story.. ermm, so i called boyfriend to pick me under my block last minute. it was really cocked up. thanks to me. :/ cause in the first place, i thought i can go alone and meet him at Toa Payoh so from there, we can go kim keat together. but i suddenly feel so lazy to go alone by taking public transport. so yea, called qal to come and pick me and he sounded like angry cause everything was like a last minute and yesssssss, i made him rush. of course, i feel so bad. :/ only God knows how am i feeling on that particular time.

again, last minute from him. he says that he needs to go traffic police to settle something and it was an office hours timing. the time shown is at 3 plus that time. i am in a rush to Singapore Nursing Board because it is also an office hour timing. but i must die die get it asap cause im applying for work soon. so now, both places that we want to go are clash. but i knew from the start to get my things settle doesnt took so long and i believe, there is still enough time to settle his things by then. but he insisted and kept saying that there is not much time left with a heavy traffic road. unfortunately, i don't know how to ride a bike. if only i know, i will ride the bike and bring him to settle his things asap. it is really a heartpain when he show me long face which is so obvious plus doesnt talk to me at all and only God knows how guilty i feel! :/ i seriously dont know what else to do or say besides keeping quiet with the feeling of guilt and apologizing. i feel so damn a spoiler that has ruin everything. ok just drop the topic..

so after that, went to jalan kayu to have our early dinner and i know boyfriend is super duper hungry. so i brought him to eat and i had murtabak mutton with tea tarik while he ate nasi goreng mamak with ice water. something happen while waiting for our food to be sent to us and i dont wish to elaborate here. after we finish eating, we have a heart to heart talk. like seriously, i feel so tense when he kept reminding me and commented about my attitude and stuff. you know its irritating to here the same thing again and again,but somehow, it make sense to me. i just over there need to listen and trying my best to change for the better. well, he is the first guy who commented about my attitude and such. i am grateful to have him as my boyfriend. it is because, he taught me alot of things from his nagging. i still love him anyway. (:

we then proceed to punggol park but its actually sengkang riverside park if im not wrong. it stops raining and my wish is granted! ;D so we find a place to seat and to relax our mind at the same time. cause both of us are so stress with life and something personal. so yes, im feeling much better after that. mama called and asked him to come down and meet her at her house and so he sent me home immediately. reached home at 9pm. see,i've changed. i don't wanna go home so late now. i want to take care of my parents feelings and not to make them worry much about my whereabouts. showed my parents my licence card and yea, they didnt say anything. very sad. ):

now, i understand the meaning of love and also relationships. it was never easy. both have to commit and share things out. no secrets between each other and always remember your loved ones and willing to sacrifice anything for soemone. im glad to have a boyfriend like haiqal cause he is the true man and always being patience towards me. i love you very very very much, qal. <3 thanks for teaching me alot of things from love to life and life to love. your my awesome boyfriend!